| haha. |
[Jan. 4th, 2005|06:33 am] |
foundaboxofsharpobjectswhatabeautifulday.
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| shut up. pt. 2 |
[Jan. 3rd, 2005|03:22 pm] |
See, I thought this was as simple as "That looks dumb, I don't want to see that" but apparently it's deeper than that and brings about my psychological issues. This has nothing to do with me being stubborn, it has everything to do with not appreciating being told by everyone that I should see or do something that I have absolutely no interest in. Why is that a bad thing? I'm sorry if I'm not as open as everyone else to doing what the group at large likes and I express myself in a very forceful way sometimes but oh well, deal with it. I'm not asking for anyone to understand, just respect the way I think sometimes. Same goes for the Emo Toast. Don't want to go there. Not interested. Leave me alone.
paddy. |
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| shut up. |
[Jan. 3rd, 2005|06:49 am] |
I must be the only person who doesn't want to see Napolean Dynamite. I never did. Stupid movies with no plot don't interest me so everyone else SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT LAME MOVIES.
lovepaddy. |
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| masochism never looked this good pt. 2 |
[Dec. 31st, 2004|06:24 pm] |
and this comes as no surprise
countless sleepless nights spent
keeping track of all the sheep
that crossed your path and met their end at
the barrel of a blank page
what a bloody broken mess I've made
of things best kept in closets
skeletons firearms and easy targets
another victim of the lie that binds when sides are taken
you'd never think that lips so sweet would say such things and fake it
you caught me at my most masochistic.
work in progress.
lovepaddy. |
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| hmm |
[Dec. 30th, 2004|06:42 am] |
"Life is beautiful. Life is struggle. Life is a beautiful struggle." - Mos Def
That is all.
lovepaddy. |
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| masochism never looked this good pt. 1 |
[Dec. 29th, 2004|03:34 pm] |
and this comes as no surprise
countless sleepless nights spent
keeping track of all the sheep
that crossed your path and met their end at
the barrel of a blank page
what a bloody broken mess I've made
of things best kept in closets
skeletons firearms and easy targets
work in progress.
lovepaddy. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 28th, 2004|06:40 am] |
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thisisnotatestbutanemergencybroadcastandivealreadyfailedityoumadeitoutalivebeforeyouhadthechancetosaygoodbyeinthatspecialwayyoualwayslikedillsettleforakissnowleavethisallbehindforgetmenotwhenyourehotandbotheredfindingyourselfunderneaththecoverswatchinghisfingersdanceacrossyourhipsandtheonlythoughtthatcrossesyourmindishowtoexpectrespectfromunkindliarsorloverswhoalwaysseemtoseekandfindyounowspreadyourwingsandlearntoflyifyouthinkitwouldhelpidgiveyouminetoreachthestarsandtouchtheskyandseetheworldthroughnewfoundeyesthatspeakintonguesandslurredspeechcolognestainedclothesyouknowarentsodiscreettelltalesignsofnightsandglassyeyesthenchasedwithbackseatridesandiknowitsunfairtosaythesethingswhileyouresounpreparedtheclickofkeysandemptyscreensandsleeplessnightsrepeatingnowspreadyourwingsandlearntoflyifyouthinkitwouldhelpidgiveyouminetoreachthestarsandtouchtheskyandseetheworldthroughnewfoundeyestensecondsleftuntilourlipsconnectinconversationpinchmebecasueimdreamingbutdontletmewakeup. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 27th, 2004|12:42 pm] |
Violin is super fun and maybe someday I'll actually be decent at it.
Show tomorrow night...I've got a really good feeling about it. Will Rock Star Paddy make an appearance? Who knows...
Busy busy busy busy week ahead. Some people I'll make happier and some I'll make sad and some will be angry but maybe I've just realized that it's important to do some things for yourself sometimes and it's healthy to do things that make you happy.
[lovepaddy.] |
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| posthiphopnuwaveemosummerblah. |
[Dec. 26th, 2004|08:48 am] |
I am a hott pink nightmare and it's TOTALLY RAD.
Interesting confliction of stylistic choices here: boy dresses like preppy scene kid, listens to mostly hip-hop and plays guitar like he's in a metalcore band. Neato burrito.
I'm sure I'll get into my interest in hip-hop culture some other time...FYI go out and buy/read The New H.N.I.C. by Todd Boyd, especially if you have any interest in the social, racial, and psychological effects of hip-hop in contemporary America.
Dear M, hope we have some good times today and happy hunting in that Moose place.
Dear JCrew, I'm not upset, just disappointed...and I was there once so I can make a qualified assessment of the events in question.
Dear NRon, ...I'm still not sure if I meant that, but I'm getting closer to finding out.
[lovepaddy.] |
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[Dec. 21st, 2004|06:43 am] |
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Masochism never looked this good. |
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| AMAZING |
[Dec. 16th, 2004|06:32 am] |
Now remember for the rest of your life that every note and word and phrase and melody and harmony and rhyme and rhythm is for you. You deserve it. You're worth it. And it doesn't bother me that we're the only ones who know.
[lovepaddy.] |
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| funny. |
[Dec. 15th, 2004|06:38 am] |
Something isn't right here. You've gone and left me on the ground.
Something isn't right in this world called confusion. You gave
it all away before you could lose it. Something isn't right
here on the ground. You never said goodbye. You died. You chose
to carry on a lie. Something isn't right here. You've gone and
left me on the ground.
Funny how now that I'm not listening to this music anymore that it's all that's in my head.
[lovepaddy.] |
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[Dec. 13th, 2004|04:08 pm] |
PS. don't take that last thing literally. I'm not that mean.
[lovepaddy.] |
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| i told you i wasn't perfect. |
[Dec. 13th, 2004|03:31 pm] |
With one or two I get used to the room
We go slow when we first make our moves
By five or six bring you out to the car
Number nine with my head on the bar
And it's sad, but true
Out of cash and I.O.U's
I've got desperate desires and unadmirable plans
My tongue will taste of gin and malicious intent
Bring you back to the bar
Get you out of the cold
A sober, straight face gets you out of your clothes
And they're scared that we know
All the crimes they'll commit
Who they'll kiss before they get home
I will lie awake
Lie for fun and fake the way I hold you
Let you fall for every empty word I say
Barely conscious in the door where you stand
Your eyes are fighting sleep while your mouth makes its demands
You laugh at every word trying hard to be cute
I almost feel sorry for what I'm going to do
And your hair smells of smoke
Who will cast the first stone?
You can sin or spend the night all alone
Brass buttons on your coat hold the cold
In the shape of a heart that they cut out of stone
You're using all your looks that you've thrown from the start
If you let me have my way I swear I'll tear you apart
Cause it's all you can be
You're a drunk and you're scared
It's ladies night, all the girls drink for free
I will lie awake
And lie for fun and fake the way I hold you
Let you fall for every empty word I say
This is the song I sing to myself most of the time when I'm with people. It's not all entirely true of me but it gets the gist of it. I'm sorry. I never meant to be that guy. Hopefully we can still talk and be nice.
[lovepaddy.] |
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| blah. |
[Dec. 13th, 2004|06:41 am] |
Your love is a verb here in my room.
Self-discovery at its finest.
The only problem is not everyone likes what I have to say after that.
I'm sorry.
[lovepaddy.] |
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| further down the river... |
[Dec. 10th, 2004|11:33 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | a crow left of the murder. | ] |
Tonight was very nice...I'm glad M got to come over; Family Guy is always a good time.
Maggie Mosh Left You Stranded. =)
Ben Kweller what?
New tattoos tomorrow!!!
Hope you had a nice time too.
Kudos to J and Nron for stopping in!
[lovepaddy.] |
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| heart beats quickly. |
[Dec. 9th, 2004|05:55 pm] |
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why is it so easy for me to mess things up with any and everyone? |
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| ataris songs hold all new meaning now. |
[Dec. 9th, 2004|12:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
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I shouldn't miss you nearly as much as I do but some things you just can't help. I hope you like your Christmas present...it's most definately from the heart. Truth be told it's probably my favorite thing I'm giving anyone this year and I know you'll appreciate it.
<3
paddy. |
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| today i'm missing something... |
[Dec. 7th, 2004|03:43 pm] |
I never meant to let you down.
I'll pay with these pleading eyes.
Now tell me honestly,
who brings a gun to a knife fight?
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I'm sorry M. I'm all confused.
lovepaddy. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 6th, 2004|04:47 pm] |
i'm just going to shut the fuck up for awhile. then everyone can be happy.
paddy. |
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